Thursday, November 21, 2013

Focus on the good!

The good news.  Yesterday was another day (2 in a row!) of healthy eating.  The bad news (or maybe annoying news) is that the scale didn't move, but then again we know that isn't an automatic thing.  It is just fun when it does.

The best news is that at CrossFit this morning, one of the girls mentioned how much weight I had lost and that I am looking SO good.  I tried to graciously take the complement, but mentioned the scale hadn't moved much over the last few months, so I let her know that meant a lot to hear.  So, even though I'm up a little, I think I'm actually looking better.

You know how when you lose a whole bunch of weight, you get that nasty skin around your middle?  I try to be so thankful that I don't have that.  I mean I spent a good portion of my life beyond morbidly obese and while I will never sport a bikini, I do not have the skin issue around my middle.  However, my extremities were a whole different matter.  Even though I have permanent scars from armpit to elbow, I will never regret having the skin taken off my arms. 

Now the issue is my legs.  They aren't lean enough yet to even discuss surgery, which I'm not as keen to do anyway.  I have huge leg muscles but they are hard to see because of the fat that is left on my thighs (that junk would be the last to go) and the hangy grody skin.  I'm always self conscious in shorts and skirts.  I feel better when I'm tan, but because of my fair skin, that isn't easy to accomplish.  That is why I LOVE winter.  I can wear tights and leggings to hold at that hangy stuff in and wear shorter skirts without feeling self conscious.  It is totally worth the cold and gloomy weather, because some of my favorite outfits are my short dresses which make me feel sassy and cute.  YAY for winter!

I have tomorrow off and I plan to go down to Dealey Plaza for the JFK commemoration.  Hopefully the weather won't be too bad.  Next week I'm off to see the parents in Florida!!


Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Let's Do This

Hi.  My name is Beth Ann and I used to be a blogger.  When last we spoke, I was getting back on the wagon and working on my goal to lose 40 pounds by my 40th birthday.  I had a great September!! 

But then October came, I had a knee injury...IT Band Syndrome...which took me out of working out for about 2 weeks.  I had a trip to Vegas which kept me out for another week.  And during those three weeks, I gained over 7 pounds.  Yeah, I'm truly an overachiever.

We all know though that those extra pounds were mostly bloating and most of it went away after a week of hard work and I settled in at about +3.  I've been hanging there for a bit, completed unmotivated.  I couldn't seem to make it a day without doing something silly, well eating something silly anyway. 

Yesterday, I emailed some of my blogging besties and had them help me hold myself accountable for ONE day of good nutritional behavior.  With the help of a little accountability, I was able to actually have one good day.  I'm going for two in a row!!

I will say that although I'm frustrated with the extra pounds I put on last year (not just the 3 from last month, but the other 20 I found in 2012), I am starting to have confidence in myself.  Physically, I mean. I remind myself that I'm a "normal" size, even if I'm not a normal weight.  I think I look cute in my clothes and overall, I'm happy.

But the never-ending quest continues, and I know that I don't want to give up and just be content.  I knew when I started this blog, that this was a life long endeavor.  Even though I have taken a couple of steps back, I know that I can meet my goal.  I just have to quit being so mentally lazy. 

How is it that I can manage to push my body so much during a workout (yesterday I felt like my lungs were going to come out of my mouth!), but I have such a hard time eating grilled fish and veggies instead of enchiladas?

I'm not sure I can answer that question, but I will commit to making the right choices TODAY.  I will worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.