Tuesday, May 1, 2012

I want to start by thanking the awesome CeeJay for leaving me the following comment yesterday:  One day at a time, one meal at a time, one workout at a time, one good decision at a time.  Look familiar?  Yeah, that's my motto.  It brought tears to my eyes to read it because I had forgotten my life plan and I can't thank her enough for bringing it back to me.

Yesterday was a good day.  My very realistic goals were:
  • Drink at least 2 big bottles of water. 
  • Eat 200-400 calories less than I burn.
  • I drank two large bottles (34 oz each) along with my other liquid for the day.
  • According to my fitbit, I ate 680 calories less than I burned and I believe that is from 9pm, so I have about 3 more hours of calorie burn that isn't included in that. 
I'm not going to lie.  I spent a lot of the day hungry, but with the calorie deficit I had, I could have had another snack.  I just have to work more to remember that balance. 

I almost always burn less calories at CrossFit than Jazzercise, so I will have less to play with today.  However, if I stay in yesterday's range, I should be more than fine. 

Here is a quick peek of my CrossFit donut crew.  Why we take pictures post workout, I do not know.  I will say that I do not like this picture of myself at all.  But I will post it anyway.
  1. I don't like that I'm bigger than all the other girls.  But then again, that's one of the main reasons I'm there, right?  And here for that matter.  I'm on a quest to get smaller and strengthen myself in the process.  If I wussed out because I was bigger than the other girls, I would never get anywhere. 
  2. I don't like my big clodhopper shoes.  I'm willing to bet that no one else notices, but I do.  I plan to buy the low profile shoes before I start back up in August.
  3. I look forward to later this summer when I'm able wear a tank top without worrying about getting my arm fat tangled up in my jump rope.
  4. I also can't wait until my hair is long enough to put in a pony tail. 
All the things that I don't like about that picture can be fixed over time.  I just have to keep my patience and keep hacking at it.  After getting control of my food intake yesterday, I'm feeling a return of the badass unicorn.  I don't have unrealistic expectations.  I don't (for instance) hate my body shape and wish I were less curvy.  That is never going to happen, so I'm really glad that I'm okay with things like that.  I don't like my big feet, but instead of consistently wishing for smaller feet, I just want to get the best shoes to make them look smaller.  :)  See?  Realistic.

One Day at a Time.
One Meal at a Time.
One Workout at a Time.
One Good Decision at a Time.



Sarah said...

Well... I think you look GREAT and you should ZIP IT!

Sometimes we are our own worst critics, and right now my friend, you are knit picking. Do you know what I see? I see a sweaty woman who just busted her ass in a long grueling workout that left her stronger there in that photo than any photo taken before... OWN THAT!

YOU ARE AMAZING! (And we love you!)


Angela said...

Can I just say that you look just like the other girls to me. If you covered up all the faces I wouldn't have been able to pick you out of the line up....just sayin'.

Cat said...

I have to agree with the other two bad ass chicks before me who both said it better than I could! You are an awesome mentor and I'm very glad you're in my life. So Zip it. *grin*

Lap Band Gal said...

What a GREAT saying!Reminds me of the Prior Fat Girl website saying.

Robyn's Nest said...

Hugs Beth- you look awesome to me. You are too hard on yourself. We all see someone that looks great and works hard at it- not big feet!!

Dawnya said...

You look great in that picture. Gotta love CeeJay for pointing out to you that very important motto. Keep up the good work. I'm sure you will find the right balance for food and calorie deficit. You got this.

Kelly Carr said...

Ever hear the one about "size doesn't matter"? Beth - I know YOU and when I look at that picture, you know what I see? I see a strong woman that is wiling to take risks and do things outside of her comfort level, I see a woman that is succeeding in her goals and taking the chances and making the differences SHE wants to make. Beth!! You are such an incredible inspiration. AND in that same breath, you are also such a sense of comedic relief for those of us too uptight to express how we feel, perceive, and understand things in our own little bubbles. The day met you, I knew you were a strong an amazing woman. You prove it to me every week and inspire me to do better and be batter, Thank you, Times a Million.

Kelly Carr said...

Well... being batter would be fun,,,, being better works for my kids and job,,, :)