Hi. My name is Beth Ann and I used to be a blogger. When last we spoke, I was getting back on the wagon and working on my goal to lose 40 pounds by my 40th birthday. I had a great September!!
But then October came, I had a knee injury...IT Band Syndrome...which took me out of working out for about 2 weeks. I had a trip to Vegas which kept me out for another week. And during those three weeks, I gained over 7 pounds. Yeah, I'm truly an overachiever.
We all know though that those extra pounds were mostly bloating and most of it went away after a week of hard work and I settled in at about +3. I've been hanging there for a bit, completed unmotivated. I couldn't seem to make it a day without doing something silly, well eating something silly anyway.
Yesterday, I emailed some of my blogging besties and had them help me hold myself accountable for ONE day of good nutritional behavior. With the help of a little accountability, I was able to actually have one good day. I'm going for two in a row!!
I will say that although I'm frustrated with the extra pounds I put on last year (not just the 3 from last month, but the other 20 I found in 2012), I am starting to have confidence in myself. Physically, I mean. I remind myself that I'm a "normal" size, even if I'm not a normal weight. I think I look cute in my clothes and overall, I'm happy.
But the never-ending quest continues, and I know that I don't want to give up and just be content. I knew when I started this blog, that this was a life long endeavor. Even though I have taken a couple of steps back, I know that I can meet my goal. I just have to quit being so mentally lazy.
How is it that I can manage to push my body so much during a workout (yesterday I felt like my lungs were going to come out of my mouth!), but I have such a hard time eating grilled fish and veggies instead of enchiladas?
I'm not sure I can answer that question, but I will commit to making the right choices TODAY. I will worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.