Choices

We all make choices.  Especially about how we spend our time.  There is NEVER enough time to do all the things we want to do.  We justify, rationalize, make excuses, but the bottom line is that we make time for the things that we want...the things that are important to us.

This is on my mind for two reason.  The first is CrossFit.  I made it back this morning...yay!!  As I was logging my results, I realized that it had been almost THREE weeks since I had been.  That is a long time for something that I say is a priority for me.  I started thinking about what made me choose to not go for three weeks.  I went out of town twice and then was sick and didn't feel like going.  In fact, during today's workout, I thought I was going to cough up a lung, so I probably was wise to sit out during my sickness.

My point is that for three weeks, there were things that I wanted to do more than I wanted to get up and CrossFit.  And that's okay.  Pres pointed out that I was slacking last week and after I really thought about it, I didn't feel guilty because I knew that I was prioritizing in a way that was right for me.  Today I'm back in the game and I plan to go three days this week before I leave town yet again.  I'm very comfortable with those choices.

The second reason is because I totally slacked off last week with my organizing goals.  We all have these things we want to get done around the house, right?  Build a patio, change up the kid's room, make the office more usable.  Whatever they are, we all have these household goals.  I WANT my spare bedroom to be organized, neat & tidy.  But obviously not enough to take the time to get it done.  I will continue to chip away at it, so I can be done when dad comes to visit, but I really wanted it done this weekend and I chose to do other things.

One a good note, one of the other things I chose to do was to clean out my pantry which was productive!  I also went through my winter clothes because it dipped into the 30s last night, which means fall is coming soon.  Not this week, really, but it is coming.  Most of my winter clothes are still too small, but I'm getting there!!

Speaking of...one thing that I'm super proud about from last week?  I stuck with The Fresh Diet all week!  I had one complete meal off while we were in Tyler Friday night and I had some supplemental snacks throughout the week, but I stuck with it in a very doable way.  I'm happy to say that I was rewarded on the scale.  In addition to keeping off the 3.6 pounds I lost while sick, I lost 1.8 pounds this week!!  I would have been thrilled to keep off the 3.6 and call it even since I think it was just dehydration, so I feel this was a HUGE win!

This week is going to be a little more challenging since I have meetings tonight & Thursday night and a show on Wednesday.  Then I'm out of town Friday-Sunday.  I would love it if I could lose even a tenth of a pound this week.  Just something to keep me on track and keep me going.

I hate that I have to make so much of my life about food.  I wish I could just shoot from the hip and eat to live.  But for the first time in my entire life, I have sustained control over my body for a significant period of time and it has given me confidence and security.  I'm not going to let that go.  If it means spending a lot of time consciously deciding about every single bite I put in my mouth?  Then so be it.  That is a choice I'm happy to make!!

Hugs!