Monday, February 6, 2012

Wow. Being hungry stinks.

So, I'm about halfway into my day and it is just now occurring to me how far I had let myself get off track.  It is easy for me to say that I was eating "mostly healthy".  But now that I'm back to logging everything, I know I wasn't. 

I had oatmeal for breakfast and then a piece of cheese for my morning snack.  For lunch, BFF game me some leftover healthy gluten-free pasta dish she made over the weekend.  She gave me two servings, but I was very proud of myself for only eating one of the them.  So far, so good.

It hasn't been two hours since I ate it and I'm genuinely hungry.  I'm going to have some hummus and wheat thins shortly.  I guess this backs up my decision to have a fill, but I wish I would have paid attention to the warning signs sooner.

Bad decisions I have avoided today:
  • I really wanted 2 packs of oatmeal, but I just had the one.
  • I wanted to eat a bunch of spiced nuts I made over the weekend, but I didn't and instead, brought them to work and left them in the kitchen for my coworkers.
  • I wanted to eat all of the pasta in one sitting, but I didn't.  I waited until I determined I was still hungry.  Or hungry again, rather.
  • I have gotten into the habit of picking up a piece of candy or two randomly throughout the day which I have avoided today.
I did not realize how bad I had gotten at grazing and portion control.  I guess that it is good that I have figured it out and I just have to power through until my fill next Tuesday.  I am so thankful to my band.  Truly.  I have worked really hard to lose this weight, but I know I couldn't have done it without this band.   

Hugs!

10 comments:

Laura Belle said...

I'm right there with you. I was starving at 10am!

And after I posted on FB about the whole chocolate obsession, my little co-worker saw it and brought me a Hershey's! But I refused it!!! To which I am solely thanking you for! My little angel on my shoulder!

Stacey said...

It is so easy to fall back into it. But once you put pen to paper (so to speak), it really gives you a holy moly moment. I have just recently started tracking again and really had an eye opening experience! Since I started, I have gone down a little over 2 lbs. I think I might stick with this for a little while.

Stephanie said...

We all go through that. It is one of the things we have to face every day, but awesome for you that you recognize what you want to change and I'm proud of you for doing it!

♫ Drazil ♪ said...

Ongoing struggle isn't it? At least you are aware of the habits creeping back in...

o.c. bandster said...

Good for you and being accountable to your journal

FitBy40 said...

I'm in the same boat right now. I'm terrified to get a fill after the big issues I had before, but I'm finding myself grazing. It sucks!

Stephanie M. said...

You know what's awesome? You recognized it BEFORE you gained all the weight back. That's fantastic.

Kiwigirl said...

I know the feeling... *sigh! The difference these days is that you are much more in tune with your behaviour patterns, and have immediately put a plan in place... what a long way you've come. I have no doubt you will get on top of this!

speck said...

Very insightful Beth on your part.

I love reading the hard choices you made. Because it is so easy to break bad habits.

Thanks for giving me the inspiration I am needing right now for myself.

Ronnie said...

Ugh. I hate tracking, but that's why I do it. Lately, it hasn't stopped me from making shit decisions... but it's sure made me realize I need to stop... sometime soon.