I was scheduled for a fill today or at least to talk to the doc about whether I needed a fill. I was tight all day yesterday and woke up this morning gurgling. I weighed and I was even down a few tenths. I think my Grandma (who I talk with in heaven a lot...if that's crazy, whatever) was giving me a sign that tightness/looseness isn't my issue. So I cancelled.
I talked to my mom this morning and told her that I was going to relax a bit. I have working at this for over a year and I have to accept that either I get on it or the weight loss is going to slow down. For over a year, I gave up a lot of things, like eating what my friends ate or going somewhere that I thought would be a trigger, etc. Over a year later, I'm the smallest as I've ever been and I'm ready to be more social and do more things. Today, it is more important to me to go out to dinner with my friends instead of working out, for example. And I think that's okay...I just have to realize that if I don't work at it as much, I won't lose weight as much.
A month or so, I got sick and was dehydrated and I think that showed false numbers on my weightloss. This month will be the first month (outside of when I was deflated) that I will gain weight. Even though I KNOW it is because of the timing of that sickness, I realize now that it still depressed me a bit. But now that I know that, I can move on.
Debi said that she wanted to do a mini-challenge, kind of hard core (I believe her words were "balls to the wall") for a short period in June and invited me to join her. She is doing 2 weeks, but I am doing 10 days. 10 days of doing perfectly what the best dieter in the world should do...well, I do have to live my life in there, but you know what I mean. It starts on 6/13 and I will keep you updated.
I'm going to see 9 to 5, The Musical with my friend ShareBear tonight. Not sure where we are going to dinner but she will pick something great, I know! I love theater nights.