I'm feeling much more than "fine" today. Y'all's comments always lift me up so much. Thank you, friends.
Commence random rant:
I am beyond tired of selfish people. For the last couple of years, I have been working really hard (inside and out) to find a place of peace and happiness. One thing that used to derail my day was selfish people. I would be so annoyed with someone's actions that I would go off the rails. That would cause me to lose MY WAY and I would be so wrapped up in my anger that I would miss out on the happiness around me.
I came to realize that while people can hurt you, you control your reaction. For instance, a friend or loved one might do something to hurt you once and it is hard to get over. But if they continue to do it again and again and you keep reacting in the same way...then I think some of the blame for your unhappiness comes from you. I realized that if I reacted with peace and love, than more often than not, peace and love would return to me. And if it didn't, I modified my relationship with that person. I don't mean I cut people out entirely...just modified my expectations of the relationship. What a freeing feeling to release your expectation of some people. Don't get me wrong, I have AMAZING close friends and I still put my full faith in them! I just don't set myself up for heartache with people who consistently disappoint.
That being said, I'm feel like I'm surrounded by selfishness at the moment. In fact, I think if everyone I knew read this post, there would be MANY that would think this is about them. The funny thing is that I feel this so widespread, it truly isn't about any one person in particular. I just wish people would start considering other people's feelings more. Everyone is so wrapped up in how THEY are affected or how THEY were wronged instead of looking how they are affecting OTHERS.
I admit that I still have to consciously make myself stop and think about my actions. And sometimes I want so bad to be whiny and selfish (and sometimes that wins.) But I promise, in the end, being the better person feels SO much better.
This was NOT about YOU. Or you know what...if you think it was, then maybe take a moment and think about why that would be. And DO BETTER!
::Deep Breath:: Sorry about that...
On a happy note, Go MAVS!! I stayed up and stayed up last night even though I was tired, but when they were so far behind at the end I turned it off. I can't BELIEVE I missed the comeback. But YAY!! I will miss the game tomorrow night because I'm going to see 9 to 5, the Musical. Jealous?! Yeah, you should be. :)