- Gave up sweets.
- Gave up chocolate.
- Wrote a letter per day to someone who touched my life.
- Gave up one evening of television per week to read instead.
It is not true that I don't have time to read books. The truth is that I spend a lot of time on the internet and don't use that time in a focused way. I fully plan to be back into it (perhaps in a more focused way) after Easter, but after tomorrow until Easter, it is a solid break. As much as I feel that social media and internet time suckers have become habits for me, I do not feel anxious about giving them up. I would be more anxious if I only allowed myself 30 minutes in the evening (or something like that). But a clean break for Lent causes no stress.
The more I started thinking about that, the less impressed I was with my decision. Not that Lenten promises should cause you stress, that's not what I mean. I'm typically very strong when it comes to these promises. Perhaps I should do something that would help my weight loss issues. I have many challenges there, why am I not choosing something that would help me with it? I know why. It is because it is scary and it will be hard.
One of my favorite JFK quotes, loosely quoted says that "we do not do [this] and the other things because they are easy, we do them because they are hard..." So I have been thinking what would make sense to do to help toward my goals and it is apparent to me that daily food logging is what I need to do. I always make the commitment to do it and Monday through Friday at lunch, I'm awesome! But Saturday and Sunday come and go with no logging and consistently I have eaten enough on those days to negate all my hard work during the week.
So, I'm going to try something new. I know that it isn't the same for everyone, and I totally respect that. But I'm going to try making a six week promise to God. I'm not promising that my eating will be perfect. I'm just promising that I will track it every single day. I believe that if I do that, I might be less likely to actually sabotage myself. I know I can do this. But I'm scared. I'm scared that I will do the same thing I always do and just stop tracking. Or I'm scared that I will track, but I will be appalled by my behavior.
We do not do these things because they are easy...