Honestly, I wouldn't even mind that much, but when I'm anxious, I tend to act out by talking. I was watching the show Chicago Fire and one of the lieutenants said to the new candidate "shut your mouth" and she kept talking. So he responds "quit talking" and yet she doesn't. "Why are you still talking??" "Stop talking." It took her a while to get it.
I used to be more of a talker than I am now. I know that a lot of the talk came from this anxiety which I used to have much more. After finding peace with myself several years ago, I allowed myself to relax and with that came less talking. Plus, BFF is a talker, so often I become more of a listener in the conversation. I feel that I have become a better conversationalist and person, really. However, when these anxious moments come up, I just can't shake them. And I keep talking about it. So far this morning, I have brought it up with my parents, my boss, my boss's boss, and a coworker. Good freaking grief. I'm done talking about it. Why can't I be anxious about normal things anyway?
Okay...next topic. I had my first accidental Facebook visit yesterday. It was totally by accident and obviously just from habit. I managed to close the window before it even fully opened. Day 2, people...ha!
It is Day 3 of Lent and in addition to successfully staying away from FB, I have logged my food. I have it logged for today, now I just have to stick with what I said I would eat.
Breakfast: coffee with cream. Double fritatta.
Lunch: mac and cheese cup, boiled egg, babybel
Dinner: seafood steampot
It is meatless Friday, so BFF & I are going to a seafood place for dinner tonight. Hopefully it won't be too crowded. She has given up alcohol for Lent, so it should be easier for me to forego the drink with dinner as well. Tomorrow & Sunday will be the key. I have to keep reminding myself that my commitment, first and foremost, is to log what I eat. If I go over my calorie allotment for the day, then at least I can own it.
CrossFit was crazy today. The CrossFit games have started and it is the Open part of the competition where people are participating from all over the world. This morning, several people at my box did the 14.2 work out to participate in the Open. It was a complicated workout:
* Must complete in 3 minutes:
10 OH Squats
10 Chest to Bar pull ups
* If completed, you get 3 more minutes:
12 OH Squats
12 Chest to Bar pull ups
And so on until you can't complete a round. If you have some time to kill, you should watch this. These ladies make it look so easy. I assure you, it is not.
For comparison, I scaled it to 6 reps each and used a big giant band to assist with regular pull ups. I made it through the first 2 rounds in 3 minutes...barely. I did a third round and only got in a few more OH squats before the 2nd 3 minutes was up. It was chaos in the gym.
This weekend should be fun and not too busy. Tomorrow I'm helping out the fire department while they do smoke detector checks around the neighborhood. On Sunday, BFF and I are going to a play. Should be fun!