Thank you all so much for your support the last several days. The funeral was lovely and my friend is perhaps the strongest person I have ever met. She has some tough times ahead, but I know she will be okay. Again, thank you. I can't tell you how much your kind words mean to me.
After this roller coaster weekend, I end up sick. I have a sinus infection. Ugh. I have antibiotics & medicine for the symptoms and I will be just fine this time tomorrow. But right now, I was to say f*ck it to my challenge. I want to lay around all day and eat bad crap.
I enjoyed last weekend. I didn't go hog wild with my food, but I ate quite a bit and I did drink a lot more that usual (which is none.) I didn't feel guilty at all because that is one big reason I'm doing all this...so I can enjoy myself and be comfortable with myself. But yesterday, I didn't have that excuse. I was just sad and feeling sorry for myself and I ate everything in sight. I know in my heart it wasn't pigging out like the "old me." But it certainly wasn't the new me either. I'm ready to get back into my routine.
Today I want to be lazy and eat crap. I hate being whiny. I hate feeling like crap. Ugh.
Okay, whinefest is over.
What is actually going to happen... I'm not going out work out at lunch, but I will go to Jazzercise. The best I have felt in the last 3 days (I've been feeling bad since Sunday) is when I worked out on Monday. So, I think a little Jazzercise will do me some good.
And I'm going to eat like I do normally. It's not hard and I will be proud of myself for not wallowing like I want.
As far as my 6-week Challenge, it is what it is. I'm not changing goals or giving up. I know I probably won't reach my goal, but it doesn't mean I can't get as absolutely close to it as possible. I have 3 more weeks to show myself what I can do. I know when I wake up tomorrow, I will feel better and I will be ready to roll. Just gotta get there. :)
Oh...and I'm mega behind on reading posts, but I plan to relax and catch up this weekend. Hopefully you will hear from me soon.