Tuesday, February 15, 2011

BOOBS envy.

Many of you that follow my blog are familiar with BOOBs.  For those of you that aren't, BOOBs (Band Of Outrageous Babes) is a group of LB bloggers that had their first get together last year and are currently planning their 2nd annual trip for September.  I SO want to go!!!

Here's the thing.  It makes me nervous.  I would probably need a roommate and that makes me even more nervous. I'm not a shy person and I'm not remotely worried about liking my potential roommate.  Quite the contrary!  I'm suddenly having a bout of my old insecurity and self doubt.  Why would anyone like me?  Ugh!  So crazy, I know.  I will get over it.

So fellow bloggers...who is going?  Who is thinking about going? 

I've been feeling particularly sad lately.  A couple that is very close to me and my family are stuggling in their marriage.  It is not my issue to discuss and not my cross to bear.  But it still makes me sad.  They have kids who I also love so very much.  My heart just hurts so much.  I just have to keep telling myself that this isn't about me and be there for all of them as they need me. 

On the bright side, I'm proud of myself for not continuing to dwell on it.  I have my moments where I get very, very sad.  I deal with it and then I move on.  In the past, I wouldn't be able to do that and I would be sticking my nose where it doesn't belong and getting myself into the middle of something I shouldn't.  I would want to know every detail and tell everyone what "I" think about every aspect of the situation.  I guess I'm glad I'm growing up a bit.

One good thing about being sad, is that it makes me want to work out.  Not really sure why, but it does.  I had to cancel dinner tonight with my sorority sis because I had to work late.  I still went for a short run (only 1.75 miles, but still decent length for me) when I got home.  That is also something I never used to would have done.  Silver linings.  :)


P.S.  I'm still loving the Skitttle!!


Kerri said...

Hey girl! I will be attending BOOBS. I felt the EXACT same way as you do prior to BOOBS 2010. I think this is the way A LOT of the women felt. We may come across as confident in our blogs but we are still human. Maybe we should be roomies!

Lap Band Gal said...

I will be in Chicago...you better be too! :) I remember feeling the same apprehension and nervousness before last year's BOOBs meetup. Don't worry, that fear goes away in the first minute once you arrive and see all your online buddies :)

Bonnie said...

I booked my BOOBS trip last year BEFORE I got banded and I was only 2 1/2 months out from being banded when I did the trip. If I can do it anybody can do it and it was a blast. Hope to see you this year.

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

I am going again! Strangely enough, I was not nervous at all! I couldn't wait to meet everyone. I hope you decide to go!

Debi said...

Uhm ... I don't know about this BOOBs thing, never heard of it. But "why would anyone like me?" ARE YOU KIDDING?! You are super fun and cute and hilarious and awesome. I liked you immediately from the first second I met you and everyone else will too! Go and have a great time!

And I'm sorry to hear about your friends. Having been in both places I know how hard it can be. Just be there for your friends and let them know you love them no matter what happens, that will mean more to them than you can imagine.

Love ya!

Stephanie M. said...

I'm going to BOOBS. I went last year and had a blast. I was "fixed up" with my roommate and we got along beautifully. I was scared to death but ended up having a fab time and I'm so glad I went. I think you should DEFINITELY come!!!

Jen said...

You have to come to BOOBS, you'll be so happy you did! Everyone is so accepting and it's a feeling like none I've felt before. Pure acceptance.